Often times we are told about love, love that is everlasting and it's usually with someone else. I'm here to tell you that the most important person to love is yourself. Cliche' I know but it is very much true, you cannot love anyone or make the proper choices in life until you learn to love yourself. Learning about your inner beauty, hobbies, dislikes and your expectation of yourself, people and relationships you want to have in your life. If you don't have any expectation or standards for yourself then you will soon become a person that wasn't you at all and you won't realize it until you start hating yourself.
Loving yourself means loving the skin you are in not the expectation of what others want you to be. I tried so hard to prove myself when I was a teenager, hell even as a young adult to fit the persona of what others wanted me to be but I'm not what everyone wants and that is perfectly okay. I used to be comfortable in my body most of my life but I never really learned to love myself which led to me listening to other peoples opinion of me and that was the wrong move. I can tell you a million things that have been said to me or about me but I will stick to the ones that affected me most. One was my weight I am short first of all and always will be so the time it all started I was probably in middle school, I was active and healthy and started out by playing sports or just being active in gym class. In most cases people were fascinated with my weight, why? some would often say I was too skinny which was hurtful because I knew I was healthy and I ate nonstop and still do because I love food. Why did they have this misconception of me? simple answer really, they weren't me and didn't have my body type. That's what it really boils down to is body type, height, metabolism. Why did it matter? Why does everyone have an opinion on someone else’s body? This at a young age started an unhealthy relationship with my body because people thought I was too skinny but to my doctors I was perfectly healthy for my height. I would force myself to eat more and try to gain weight and that was really hard on me finding weight gaining bars and shakes when I didn't need to but because it wasn’t good enough for them I wanted desperately to change how I looked and it was depressing because I would compare myself. Eventually, I said fuck you to everyone and started to regain my power and confidence back and I am happier and healthier, the point I'm trying to make ladies and gents is don't let other people define you or your beauty, don't let them cause you to have shame in what you love about yourself because it took me a long time to love myself for who I was and appreciate what I had to offer. I have two children that grew within me, my body has done something incredible and I will not shame my body for doing something that was so magnificent. I am stronger mentally, physically and spiritually. I can tell you that not much phases me anymore because I am proud of who I am as a person inside and out.
"You are beautiful, never let anyone dim your shining light"
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